Last week’s reassurances that remaining faithful would see the storm pass were all very well, but as Ciara blustered her way out her friend Dennis was just making an equally powerful entrance. People struggling to repair fence panels blown down in one weekend must have been looking over their shoulders as a second weekend’s battering arrived. Flooded fields and roads have barely had time to subside before another two days of sweeping, heavy, incessant rain. More disruption, more destruction and more people anxious about the approach of flood waters. Plenty, then, to worry about.
I almost didn’t make it to St John the Baptist in Baginton this morning. The route to the village featured a stretch of road where a blown-down tree was blocking half the road followed by a junction which had become a most attractive, though decidedly impassable, lake. Local knowledge got me through only to be rewarded by a fair old soaking between car and church door.
St John is a small church. Only a dozen or so people are here today and, despite an attractive display of children’s work on a table at the side, I may be the youngest here. With the announcement that our vicar today is moving away into a retirement home there must be worries over how this will affect the church.
And worry is the theme for the day. The gospel reading and the sermon which follows explore the nature of worry and entreat us to trust in God and just know that everything will be alright in the end. Faith - any faith, I’d say - makes enormous demands of our trust, but this blanket sidelining of worry in favour of effectively closing your eyes and letting someone else sort it out is, for me, difficult to allow.
I worry too much, I know that. I always have. The psychologist Philippa Perry says anxiety and pessimism is directly linked to the stories you encounter all through your life. After thirty years of reporting car crashes, crime and (increasingly) flood damage, it’s no wonder if during a hymn my thoughts stray to what state my house will be in when I get home. If I get home at all of course. The noise of the rain hammering against the windows doesn’t help.
If you’re not worrying about what can go wrong, these days, you might well find yourself worrying about not having enough going right. Watching the TV I’m bombarded with adverts aimed at making me worry my phone, my holiday, my car, my funeral even should be brighter, bigger or better. Worrying, it would seem, can be big business for someone.
I think the Buddhists have the best approach to getting worrying under control - breaking down the panic, putting things in perspective and then pushing it completely out of the picture. I can’t help but note that this approach comes from within rather than by passing responsibility to someone else, however almighty that person may be.
Service over, it’s time to brave the dash to the car and the country lanes which have had another hour to worsen. Trying from the inside not to panic while simultaneously trusting to faith, I do safely make it home - but not without having to drive fifty yards on the opposite carriageway’s pavement under a bridge when it became apparent that, for me, this mud red sea would not be parting.
